I wrote a song today. It came about because when I came out of my bedroom this morning, my dog was there. He greeted me full of enthusiasm and bounce (despite having a bad back) and didn’t care that I was depressed. He was happy to see me and he showed it. I knelt down on the floor to try to ease his back a bit, and made a fuss of him. After I made some greeting (I think I called him Big Fluff today), I reflected his enthusiasm and said, “It’s a good day”. It’s the idea of faking it until you make it I suppose. If I said it enough, perhaps today will be a good day. I then asked him, “have you been outside?”. It struck me that those two lines might make a good starting point for a song. They seem to be very singable as well.

I thought the song could be formed around the contrast of feeling depressed whilst telling yourself that it was a good day really. As I went into town to meet my autistic support group, I opened a door to two women leaving a building. The first woman gave me such a genuinely warm smile of thanks. I was shocked by how such a small gesture by someone so blue, could have such a positive impact. I thought that that might make a good bridge section musically.

There is very little support for chronic mental health in the UK nowadays. Once you have been passed though pyschiatrist, physcologist, and local mental health teams you can fall out of the system all together. It’s not that the system doesnn’t care but that the waiting lists of so long and you’ve had your shot and progress has stalled. “We can’t do anything more for you”. It is up to local charities to pick up the pieces and provide something, but they are stretched too. It it us to us to help each other. After all we understand the issues better. My group has had a Whatsup group for a while now to help organise our meetings but today we committed to using it as a support mechanism outside the meetings.

The song formed over this afternoon taking inspiration from this morning’s events. I have a tune in my head for the chorus which would appear to be in E minor so I’m looking forward to playing around with the chords from that. Each section, verse, chorus and bridge are in separate time signatures but have a common beat. My hope is that the song will end with overlapping sections but only experimentation will help me make a decision.

It’s a good day,
It’s a good day,
Have you been outside?
It’s a good day.

Lying in my bed awake,
Wanting just to stay,
Black feelings hard to shake,
So starts another day.

How should I get to town,
Car, bike or walk?
Help me to get rid of frown,
But I’ll have to talk.

It’s a good day,
It’s a good day,
Have you been outside?
It’s a good day.

We talk of suicide,
The counter pills we take,
The ways that we decide,
To give ourselves a break.

Commitments to write each day,
To tell it as it is,
To share our joy and our pain,
To know we are not missed.

It’s a good day,
It’s a good day,
Have you been outside?
It’s a good day.

I opened the door for you and you smiled,
In pleasure you beamed and caught me off guard,
How come someone so down, cause such joy?
Walking through the park, I noticed some flowers,
Under the tree, Snowdrops so early in January,
I’m late, but I stop and take the photo in joy.